And that we will love.

Six months ago today, I was busy primping and pampering myself, trying to make myself look more beautiful than I’ve ever looked before.

I arrived at the bridal suite nervous and a little cranky. Anticipation has never been my thing.

I put the dress on and began to cry. I was so nervous. My mom and bridesmaids played hinky pinkys with me to keep my mind occupied.

And then, I was waiting to walk down the aisle and I heard the familiar strains of fanfare that begin “All You Need is Love” and I started walking with my parents. And I saw Tim. And nothing else mattered anymore.

Six months ago today, I married my favorite, my only, my love. I didn’t become someone new or shed something old.  I didn’t step through a portal that transported me to Wedded Bliss.  The earth didn’t move under my feet.

Weddings are not transformative.  Love is.  And I am lucky to be so transformed by so much of it.  Love from family, friends, Tim.  Like a child, it takes a village (and lots of hard work) to raise a baby marriage, a baby family.  And we have been blessed with a village.

For six months, I have grown and changed.  I have remained the same.  I have been a contradiction.   I have been a feminist domestic.  I have blended old and new.  I have discarded and added.  I have reflected.  I have looked forward.  I have been filled with love.

For six more months, we’ll take it day-by-day.  And before we know it, we’ll be on the other side of another October, looking back and looking forward.  Maybe we’ll be looking in completely different directions, but if I have faith in anything, I have faith that we will meet in the middle.  And that we will love.

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